haha =)
actually the real reason behind i seem too emo nowadays lahz is becos ~ becos after my dad's incident ~ I keep very quiet le ..I thot I get used my dad's pass away,always zai ren jia mian qian happy happy....but i reliase i did not =( .... now..I does not feel like going out again n again.. hahahaha...I know frens will worry for me but i trying to go out but does not feel like to like keep asking me wanna come out ...I so long le ...never went to my ger's gathering..Sorry abt it ...I keep on rejecting dem=( Sorry lahz.

I trying to get over of it but still i cannot ~ went to see doc for many times.everytime see le ...I will cry ='( Seriously ...I still think of my dad n my mum...my 2 closest person in the world ~ When i gt a dream,i would always told dem i will take care of dem till the end but in the end..they left first b4 me ...I remember i cry when my mum passed away..I cry super jialat and in the end... when she passed away,i wasn't with her till the last.....when she passed away,i was did not eat for nearly 3mths..cos i share my problems wif her..is like when she pass away...there no one will be there for me already...

my dad...who is a SUPER good dad whom i super miss him although sometimes he will punish me if i do wrong...he dead in a earthquake...the recently Sichua Earthquake...I did not know he went there until my bro,my uncle call me n msg me den i reliase he was there for a work purpose....i always forbid him to go there for work...he knows that so he did not told me he went there ....as i all along thot he was @ japan..until receive bro,uncle sms n calls .....When get to know tis news....I keep on everyday went to church to pray for him,pray he will be safe come back,pray that he alright ....but ...maybe heaven did not really listen to my prayers....maybe..it took him away..his body was found few days later...and know wad ,his face is totally smashed when being founded.....From that on,I keep very quiet.....I keep myself @ home ...I keep asking why 上天要带他走...Lost Mum is not enough for me....I lost him as well.....I really miss his scolding , his careness and many many more.. =) IF time bring back,i really really wanna to treasure more time wif dem ....but now ... haiz ....

I seriously need time to recover....But still i cannot .... I alone @ home i still can thinking of dem....seeing their photos will make me seriously sad.... =(