Yesterday got a terrible headache...sleep awhile den wake up @ 10pm...after that listen to Cruz Ge and PeifeN jie Programme...Found out my pilliow was wet....(i realised i cry le)...Why?cos my beloved cat Ginny was dead...she had been accompanying me for 3 years...this 3 years ...Ginny's health was quite well...but dont know why....1 year ago,her health was not so good...and now...she had left me...she had left my family,me and my him...

Yesterday was really sad...Does i nvr care abt my Ginny?...becos of Ginny...i care for my another cat,Rinny...and my 3 beloved dogs...my another car Rinny was Ginny younger sis...she knows that her sis had...dead...does not want to eat...I really dont know...really dont know.......

hEard Peifen jie say she went to see a movie " all abt dogs"...heard is a nice,touching movie...I think i should watch...i think so...

my beloved god sis Jamie's dad had passed away due heart disease...i did not know until she called me...she was crying on the phone...this is the first time i heard her cry.....to me,she was a strong gal...but now ...her dad died....she cry...i know she was not so close wif her dad...she often quarrel wif her dad...she told me she did not really care abt her dad...now her dad died,she feels really regret...I really dont know what to tell her or console her...I only know that i cry cos her dad watching me from small till now..when i sick,beside my him,he often will called me and check how was i ...will cook porridge for me when i sick...i not her real daughter but he still treat me as his real daughter...just becos like that...i quickly went down to jamie's hse to check how was it...i saw jamie was crying till eyes red n swollen...i really dont know how to console her....jamie's mum passed away when she was 12 years old...she was died by cancer...

went back hme yesterday nite...den immediately i went back 2 my room and cry on the bed...i realise that i cry till i sleep...am i useless?i think i am...i really think i am...really....